What I learned while making pancakes

Ok, so it's not really what I learned while making pancakes. But it's what God showed me about Himself and myself while I was out at IHOP (International House of Prayer) in Kansas City. I'm just now sharing it because I came across this journal entry the other day while cleaning out my room and my friend wanted a copy. So I thought I'd share it with you all as well....

He is zealous or me. He wants me. He is a fierce warrior fighting for me to have right thinking and tearing down every thought that stands contrary to the truth of who He is. He longs for me to see Him rightly because He wants perfect, unhindered fellowship/community with me. He wants me to have no barriers in receiving His love because He wants me to fully enjoy His love. He wants me to completely enjoy Him and have no offense in my heart. He has been faithful to me. Faithful to bring me from glory to greater glory. He who began a good work is faithful to complete it. He is the Faithful Witness- never ceasing to reveal His truth to my heart. He has been doing this my whole life. Tearing down lies and revealing truth. He has brought me from San Francisco to Mexico to Hawaii to Africa to Australia to Redding to Kansas City to show me His heart. To show me His goodness towards me, His unending love, His mercy, the power of his blood, His fierce zeal, even in my weakness, but knowing that I love Him and want more of Him and desire to always have a “yes” in my heart towards Him.
And I am not second class in the kingdom of God. He desires me. He does not withhold Himself from me! He does not favor others more than me. He longs to have me see Him rightly. To see Him for who He really is – not just for who I think He is and who I have let circumstances and people tell me who He is. He wants to reveal His true self. The God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. The God who made Himself a man to come and serve and stand as a Silent Lamb to be slaughtered for my sins because of love and mercy- to make a way for us to be together. The God who strengthens me to stand until the day I see Him face to face. The God who rightly judges the earth. The God who I will be with forever and ever and ever. The God hears me and moves at the sound of my voice. Oh He is an intimate God, who lives in me. I am not beyond God. I am not too much for God. I and my problems are not bigger than God. I am His bride, with love, tho weak, for Him and He constantly “goes again” to me. Comes and woos me with fireflies and grassy hills and sunrises and His sweet Presence and reminders of His goodness, mercy, love and faithfulness to me. He is the God who let John rest upon His bosom and whispered secrets to. The God who gallops on the mountains of my fear; who takes me to run with Him. I am humbled that He hears me and answers my cries – cries from even years ago. That I long to be a vessel of unhindered love. That I may receive His love without hindrance and freely pour out His love to others. He is taking me on a good, good journey cause He is a good, good God and this journey is with Him and bringing me closer to Him. Oh and one day He will be my Sunshine. For in that City we will have no need for the sun… for He will shine on us.